Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Sharing is caring ..

Sattler's HO Train & Hobby
Sattler's Ho Trains and Hobbies .. Ho Trains?! Wha? too funny ..

Sattler Theatre 14
Apparently, this is the Sattler Theater .. I couldn't find a photo with the name in it ..

Here is the outside ..
Sattler Theatre

1965 Gaffers & Sattler Ovens Ad
Love this!

Sattler, Texas
Sattler, Texas..


Monday, December 28, 2009

I fell off my name ..

ok .. blog post .. tried this a few times over the weekend, here we go ..

I am in sort of a light place and a dark place right now. Some hope was diminished but then some sprang up in a new place .. Let's vague that up, shall we?

I was on a creative streak and then something difficult happened and it just added fuel to the fire. Which is exciting finding inspiration in pain and darkness .. I just need to stop being afraid of the world and start being honest with myself ..

There is no better loss than to lose myself in you -Mute Math

Poke at my iris ..
There is one thing we've got going and it's the only thing worth knowing. It's got lots to do with magnets and the pull of the moon - Frightened Rabbit

I loved you before the winter came - Noddy

You stole my heart ..
Are we gonna have it out?
Are you gonna throw your punch?
Lose your pretty cool
Cause I will make you sorry
I'm gonna make you sorry

But, baby, I'm yours ..

Man Plus

Butterscotch Kisses ..
How the hell could I have guessed that you meant no when you said yes?
I am a fool for loving you ..
Man Plus

Worse for wear ..
To the times when it was quiet and all we could do was gaze at one another. At least it was quiet in my head. Now it is so fucking loud in here .. This is the storm after the calm.

Out of pain and sorrow, I make beauty with my bare hands ..

Some recent photos and song lyrics that have moved me .. Also, some poetry of my own .. I can't wait to go home and paint ..

oh and new hair color! You can't really see it here ..


Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Death of me ..

Do I have nothing good left to say?
Do I need whiskey to start fueling my complaints?
People love to drink their troubles away.
Sometimes I feel that I'd be better off that way.

'Cause maybe then I could sleep at night.
I wouldn't lie awake until the morning light.
This is something that I'll never control.
My nerves will be the death of me, I know.
I know, I know.

So here's to living life miserable.
And here's to all the lonely stories that I've told.
Maybe drinking wine will validate my sorrow.
Every man needs a muse and mine could be the bottle.

Maybe then I could sleep at night.
I wouldn't lie awake until the morning light.
This is something that I'll never control.
My nerves will be the death of me, I know.

Finally, I could hope for a better day.
No longer holding on to all the things that cloud my mind.
Maybe then the weight of the world wouldn't seem so heavy.
But then again I'll probably always feel this way.

At least I know I'll never sleep at night. (Sleep at night)
I'll always lie awake until the morning light. (Til the morning light)
This is something that I'll never control.
My nerves will be the death of me.
My nerves will be the death of me.

My nerves will be the death of me, I know.

Monday, December 07, 2009

I wish I had more hair ..

I mean I wish it was thicker .. or that I had more .. well, it makes sense in my head ..

So ..

Good-bye beautiful Fall ..

fall ..

Autumn Martha ..

Hello harsh Winter ..

frosty ..
frozen tears .. I mean, dew ..

So it is freezing cold in Seattle .. No snow yet .. fingers crossed we don't get any for awhile .. Due to the fact I moved to a different part of town and am WAY farther from work, commuting will be a challenge in snow .. I need to map out a back way with not so many hills. It isn't as if I am not capable of driving in snow, I mean, I grew up in Montana. It is just that this city freaks out when it snows and they don't handle it well .. plus, you know , hills .. lots and lots of steep steep hills.

Had a good weekend .. Productive, very productive. Went to two holiday parties, the first was super fun .. Tracy made her apartment very festive complete with mulled wine and whiskey cider, I did not partake in either however. Took some classic photos though ..

Bro ..

I did A TON of cleaning and organizing, I even moved furniture to clean behind it. My bedroom closet is almost back in order, I was looking at it thinking, "Why are there so many empty hangers?" and then remembered I still have bags of clothes in Martha's car from our laundromat adventure a month ago. Ugh. So far I have a big box and two big garbage bags full for donation with a couple other things I put directly in the car. It feels good, very good, to have more room in my tiny house.

Oh! and I bought a new AWESOME purse at Atlas Clothing! I had to contemplate it beforehand but love it more everytime I look at it .. I will take some photos.

I am sneezy today .. allergies .. annoying ..

Tomorrow hopefully I will be taking a much needed walk around Green Lake with a good friend and maybe get some skate park shots ..

Here's hoping ..

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Is it naive to think I could be any comfort?

What is it that causes connections between people? How do you meet a stranger and feel as if you've known them your whole life? How is it that you could reconnect with someone after years of seperation and with no word in between but feel as if not a day had gone by?

Why do we crave people? Crave companionship, long for partnership. And yet on the flip side, some of us don't. Some of us can live independently and not rely on anyone, but others are crippled by lonliness.

Human chemistry, behavior and emotions can truly be a mystery.

I often wish I could understand how my mind works. Why I long for certain people and not others. Why I can be curled in dispair one minute and as high as a cloud the next. Why and if I have fallen prey to my genetic predisposition to want a substance to feel comfortable and normal.

I don't believe that any one person can be completely free of regrets. Yes, our decisions have put us where we are today and made us who we are today but there has to be at least one tiny regret somewhere in those decisions. Maybe I don't believe it because I have too many regrets.

I regret saying yes ..
I regret saying no ..
I regret doing this ..
I regret doing that ..

I think I know what my number one regret is however and it is something that can be mended. Something I can change in the immediate future. Maybe I will need help, maybe I won't. Maybe I am naive in thinking I won't need help.

weathered ..

Wow, this went in a totally different direction than I had planned ..

ah well .. at least I don't regret where it went ..

Monday, November 30, 2009

My life in iPhone photos .. Vol. 1

I got this idea from Elsie and her cell phone photo post.

These are all since I bought my iPhone in March? Some are the original, some are edited with apps ..

Bath time
This was the day I bought my phone, I also made a stop at Bath and Body Works and bought my favorite scent in bubble bath form. This became a bad habit, tweeting in the tub. I never dropped my phone *knock on wood* thankfully ..
Neumos - Capitol Hill Block Party - Seattle, WA - Edited using ColorSplash
My favorite
Me n' Ellen on 'Prom Night' .. Edited with CameraBag
My Dahlias bloomed again!
One of my favorites, my Dahlia that bloomed off me porch. It got even bigger after this! Love it ..
sleepy puppa
Frightened Rabbit @ Neumos
Frightened Rabbit - Neumos - Seattle, WA - This is also one of my favorites .. Edited with CameraBag and a little iPhoto. One of the best shows I have seen in my life ..
Poly Drive
Poly Drive - first photo after leaving the airport in Billings - First time home in over a year
The Birthday Girl is pooped
My niece, Madison, after her third birthday .. Passed out with fairy wings, glow stick necklace, and green rubber frogs boots still on
Smith Tower
The Smith Tower - Enough said ..
mossy stairs ..
Front porch @ V's
Back porch @ V's
Outside Seattle ..
I could seriously have an entire post about clouds .. lots and lots of clouds .. its an obsession
"Take it like this"
Hailey Sue, my goofy girl ..

Crafts with my girls
Ella and her new love for bykes ..
The Market
The Market

ok, that is only a select few .. feel free to check out more here. You can also click on the photos above to head on over to flickr ..

Thanx for looking!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Call It Off ..

I won't regret saying this
This thing
That I'm saying
Is it better than
Keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I won't be out long
But I still think it better if
You take your time
Coming over here
I think that's for the best
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now
We'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do


Friday, November 06, 2009

Friday Afternoon Survival Kit

Friday Afternoon Survival Kit

Sugar free redbull, smart water, burt's bees, purell, generic dayquil, sugar free cough drops, notebook and pen .. Oh and iPod of course flipping back and forth between tunes and NPR .. AKA work boredom :)

So I'm sick again .. second time in about a month. No time off this time, I have used up all of my PTO.

My friends are gone :( Just a few but the ones I am closest to and spend the most time with other than Ellen. I have been pestering her with texts today to see if she is free this weekend.

I do plan to keep myself busy with lots around the house, crafting, maybe some painting, and catching up on correspondence. Some blogging perhaps about bugs and bruises .. You'll see what I mean.

Here are two of the lovely faces I am missing:

Martha and Mikey ..


Thursday, November 05, 2009

Dearest Foresaken ..

Days like this are perfect for Iron & Wine ..
View from my desk ..

This photo is a couple of weeks old but the weather conditions aren't much different today .. I love how there are three different images in one .. The rain on the window, the falls colors outside, and the reflection of my hands holding the camera.

Five of my closest friends have left or are leaving town yesterday, today, and tomorrow .. Did that make sense? Some for a couple of days, some for weeks .. It's sad but is a good time for self reflection and hopefully spend some time with my family if this darn cold would go away .. Second time in a month I have been sick .. Good times. I'm thinking of doing a cleanse this weekend, a quick one. Raw foods, herbs, tea, and soup. That way when my friends return, I will be refreshed and (hopefully) healthier and ready for new adventures.

I also plan to be very productive this weekend. Get some painting done (kitchen and bathroom), and some other forms of painting hopefully. Lots of knitting, I would LOVE to make a Christmas pom pom wreath like James of Bleubird Vintage! Her wreath is fall colors, which I LOVE fall colors but it seems a bit late to me. We'll see. My sewing machine is in a black bag with bug killer, more on that in a later post, so that's out of the question.

I am hoping my niece, Mary, who is back from Spain after three years, will stop by with her friend, Jeanette, so we can do some crafting an catching up! So excited to see her!

anyway, I should get back to work ..

Thursday, October 29, 2009

It's almost time ..

Halloween is two days away .. well, close enough .. I have almost my entire costume completed .. So excited! I will be heading out on Capitol Hill with my wonderful friends! I will post photos of my costume and the night this weekend .. Here are some great costumes found on Flickr ..

Snail Costume
Jack and Sally from the Nightmare Before Christmas Halloween Costumes Inspired by Tim Burton
I want to do this someday ..
Max Costume
I opted to be a different Max this year ..
Kira Halloween Costume!
So creative!
Doctor Who and a Dalek
This one cracks me up! Doctor Who and a Dalek on rollerskates!
We are Almond Joy & Mounds. He has nuts. I don't.
Oh my god! Almond Joy and Mounds!

50's me and my Bumble Bee
Here is me and Willow last year .. We matched! She is missing her Bumble Bee antenea.

There have been a few changes in my world recently. Life has been chaotic in good and bad for the past two weeks, thankfully, the good outweighed the bad and the bad is hopefully gone for good .. I have been so exhausted that blogging wasn't a priority. There are a few more kinks to work with the good before I can divulge any information .. but I will in due time. These are trying times but my heart is singing ..

Anyway, have a safe and happy Halloween!