It's been far too long ..

As soon as I figured out the concept of tumblr, I pretty much stopped posting here. Not as if I was really good about it anyway.

Life has been crazy this Summer. And completely incredible. I am so grateful for the people in my life. New and old.

I didn't used to be a Summer person. My favorite season will always and forever be Autumn. But as I grow older and become more comfortable with myself and my surroundings it has made this dreaded season much more enjoyable. Some people think I'm crazy for loving the rain over the sun but I am liking it more and more.

We, of course, have had a very mild Summer in Seattle. I believe we have only had one day that actually reached 90 degrees. The nights still cool off pretty easily. I am thinking of selling my air conditioner that my Dad bought me last year (Against my wishes) during our horrible heat spell. It would mean some extra cash and some space in my closet.

When I visited Montana at the end of July, it was pretty warm there. I wanted to come home just to stop sweating. It wasn't too bad though. I will most likely experience the same weather when I visit Cincinnati in the first week of September.

That's right. I will be taking a trip to fabulous Cincinnati, Oh! Something I never imagined happening in my lifetime: Visiting Kentucky and Ohio. But, needless to say, I have met someone very special that I will be visiting. I hope to have some amazing experiences getting to know him more, and his friends. Drinking great beer, eating great food, and listening to some great live music. This Summer just keeps getting better and better.

I am not sure if I can gaurentee that I will be updating more. Life just seems to get in the way of life. I will try though.

xoxo

here's to the future

Is it easier to know that a relationship is ending or have the break-up be a sudden surprise?

either way, its lousy. 

i just spent today and last night gathering the last of my belongings from Richard's apartment. clothing, toiletries, computer files, board games, dog dishes. Though i hated that apartment its close quarters, messiness, ants. i shed a tear when i left today. 

5 years. 

of love, of hate, of playing and fighting. laughter .. lots of laughter. 

on the way home i found the heat not as bad as yesterday and i was compelled to take the long, scenic drive home down hwy 99 .. i take that drive and have all these thoughts and feelings going through my mind. i always wish i had the time and a camera to be able to stop along the way and photograph the city. i contemplated stopping at the fremont sunday farmers market. i saw the cruise ships along elliot bay and remembered the documentary on the titanic i watched last and wondered whether they even compare the size of it .. i guess i could look it up.

so now is a time for self reflection. before i can love another i have to love myself. wow is that cliche. 

so tomorrow we will speed to Portland together to slide into our front row seats for Eddie Izzard and then part ways. 

i know i can live without him but its going to take some time to find my way. 

so i will be throwing myself in art, friends, workouts. maybe school. hopefully stop loathing my job. 

here's to the future.

xo