Gonoherpesyphilaids Day - Break-up Mix Tape - Part 2

There was something wrong with the HTML and it wouldn't let me save or post so I started a second post:

The songs and artists that are missing include:

Man Plus - Butterscotch Kisses

Man Plus - Down At My Place

Noddy - I Am Becoming You (download free: http://noddy.indiedino.com)

Mike Park

Chris Garneau

Please also consider listening to one of my favorite episodes of This American Life titled Break-Ups. Especially the story by Starlee Kine.

And a special episode of All Songs Considered for Valentine's Day wherein they feature nothing but break-up songs.

Yeah, I'm an NPR nerd among other things.

Thank you for listening. I hope you enjoy these songs and artists as much as I have.

xoxo

Gonoherpesyphilaids Day - Break-up Mix Tape

As you can see, I have been working on one particular tape for awhile. Hence, the page of scribbles and notes above that I have revised over and over since last Spring.

First of all, I have to point out how difficult of a process this was .. not the emotional side, per say, but actually finding a suitable service that creates playlists. I didn't want to just list out the songs, I wanted you to have the option of easily listening to the songs without having to take the time to purchase and download them.

I wanted to find a service that would allow me to add my own mp3s as well because there are some artists on these lists that I knew wouldn't be available as they are independent artists that are not on a mainstream label, i.e. Man Plus and Noddy .. and Mike Park for some reason.

Ok, so about the lists. These aren't necessarily "break-up songs" .. the way I see it, an artist writes a song for themselves to convey a thought or feeling. Most of them release their piece to share their art and to share these thoughts and feelings with the hopes that someone will either like the way it sounds or will relate to the poetry created from real life events. On my side, as the listener, I hear something I like and whether or not I understand what exactly that artist was going through or attempting to express, I try to find my own meaning in the words. Find my own way to relate to it.

A lot of these songs were in my life for some time and only became more apparent and meaningful to me after going through two very difficult break-ups. In one year, I might add .. yeah, it's a process .. haha .. Other songs just happened to fall into my lap during the rough times and when I heard them either my jaw would drop or a tear would well up at the shear coincidence that what I was hearing was exactly what I was feeling at that moment.

This has been the most transformative year of my life. I can't say I wouldn't change anything but I am proud of what I have learned about people, myself, and life in general. There are days when I can see light at the end of the tunnel .. and days when I can't. But I know that this too shall pass ..

Now onto the music ..

dick. records

V. records - This one is a work in progress

Honorable Mentions

A good portion of the 'Honorable Mentions' were suggestions from friends.

Thank you for listenting. I hope you enjoy these songs and artists as much as I have.

xoxo

here's to the future

Is it easier to know that a relationship is ending or have the break-up be a sudden surprise?

either way, its lousy. 

i just spent today and last night gathering the last of my belongings from Richard's apartment. clothing, toiletries, computer files, board games, dog dishes. Though i hated that apartment its close quarters, messiness, ants. i shed a tear when i left today. 

5 years. 

of love, of hate, of playing and fighting. laughter .. lots of laughter. 

on the way home i found the heat not as bad as yesterday and i was compelled to take the long, scenic drive home down hwy 99 .. i take that drive and have all these thoughts and feelings going through my mind. i always wish i had the time and a camera to be able to stop along the way and photograph the city. i contemplated stopping at the fremont sunday farmers market. i saw the cruise ships along elliot bay and remembered the documentary on the titanic i watched last and wondered whether they even compare the size of it .. i guess i could look it up.

so now is a time for self reflection. before i can love another i have to love myself. wow is that cliche. 

so tomorrow we will speed to Portland together to slide into our front row seats for Eddie Izzard and then part ways. 

i know i can live without him but its going to take some time to find my way. 

so i will be throwing myself in art, friends, workouts. maybe school. hopefully stop loathing my job. 

here's to the future.

xo