in my own skin ..

So today is either day three or day four without taking my medication. I cant remember if i took it Thursday night or Friday night. But i feel ok. I feel the effects a little more today than yesterday but the withdrawals aren't so bad as they have been in the past. I am hoping it wont get any worse. I am not concerned about the depression coming back as much as the anxiety. I am working out enough to not really worry about getting depressed.

I have been working out solid for almost two weeks now. Either i use the eliptical and lift weights in my office building, walk the dog, go to kickboxing class, or do my ball exercises at home. Even when i stay at Richard's i use his exercise bike.

I have been really good about my eating, too. The worst things i have had were pizza with low-fat ranch and mac n' cheese. The mac n' cheese WAS organic though. I was craving it and had to buy organic non-fat milk for it which was the first milk i have bought since January.

I haven't seen any results yet but Liz says it can take up to 6-8 weeks. Le sigh. I just have to keep at it. I have managed to turn the typical society reaction around to my advantage however. Whenever i see thinner, good looking girls in magazines or on television it just encourages me to work harder to reach my goal. I know i won't be Kate Moss thin, and i dont want to be. I want to be healthy and fit and more confident. I want to be comfortable in my own skin.